I have been having a really tough time getting to my 10% goal. Last week I came to the realization that I am self sabotaging myself. That I am causing my own pain. For some reason deep down inside, I am scared to loose the weight.When i was in high school I dated a few different guys, then in university I just was not interested. Now for some reason at 35 I have it in my head that it will never happen. This previous August, I got out of a really bad relationship that lasted one year. I want better. And I want to be with somebody, but I am embarrassed by my body. Down to the honest truth, I do not think that I am pretty, and I am not very good at taking compliments. I think actually I know that the reason why i am sabotaging myself, is how hurt will I be if I get to my goal weight, and still end up alone. Well I am never truly alone, my best friends are ALWAYS around, and so is my HUGE family.
My goal was to reach my 10% goal by April. But as you can see I see sawed in April April 03 212.2
April 12 211.2
April 17 212.6
April 23 211.4 I am only .2lbs away!
Well Today is the first weigh in in May and the first week in May. So I hope that I cross over the threshold, and loose this week to get my 10% goal. I promise to myself that I will not get upset if I don't and that next week I WILL be over that hump in the road.
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